Afraid

I'm afraid I'm losing him.  He is tired, I am tired. He doesn't understand and I don't understand. We aren't happy. It's not that we aren't happy with each other, but this never ending pattern of depression is making both of us unhappy. I feel very stuck. As if there is no way out. I am scared, I love him. I love him and I'm making him not love me. 

I see darkness. I'm in a tunnel and im not sure which direction to go because there is no light at either end. 

I'm losing. I'm losing life, I'm losing love, I'm losing hope. I'm sinking ever so deep into a dark abyss.  

I love you Chaz, Haley, Nixon and Matix.