Dark Abyss

I wake up

I'm stuck

I'm trapped in a prison

My personal hell

Those around me need me

But I am not here

I've been taken captive

My mind is a daze

My fists gripping onto life

My children acting out

They are lonely

I am lonely

My husband is lonely

Everyone needs me

I need me

I am gone

My eyes are blurred

I am spinning 

I am still

I reach out

"Help me", I scream

No one hears 

I am alone

I try to speak, there is no sound

Selfishness consumes me

Failure 

I am hurting 

I'm hurting those I love

What is love 

Where am I

Im in a hole

It is dark

I try to escape

My body is paralyzed

No one understands

It looks easy

There's a ladder beside me

I know where to go

But I am stuck

My voice is taken

I will die

This hole consumes me

No one sees me 

I am lost

It is dark

I will die here

All alone

I wake up