Spirituality

February 24

Spirituality has always been a hard thing for me to separate since growing up with such a strong religious background.  I always viewed spirituality with righteousness.  Learning to separate the two is difficult and definitely takes some soul searching. 

The first view I have about spirituality is the ability to be in touch with my inner self.  My soul so to speak.  I feel like my spirituality is the ability to be in tune and congruent with me.  I also feel spirituality as being a connection. A connection to other souls, persons, and God.  I find spirituality in nature and plants.  I often feel like I am a very spiritual person in the way that I can feel others.  I can see others.  I can feel and see their spiritual selves.  I feel very connected spiritually to people, animals and plants.  I believe that all living things have a spirit and we have the ability to access that connection.  

I find the time I feel most spiritually connected is while gardening.  While transplanting my plants in the ground and giving them their final resting place I feel a sense of connection to that plant.  

I recognize the two opposite forces within me and I know there is one that wants success, happiness, and fulfillment and the other wants me to fail and be miserable.  I believe that people can be connected in a spiritual way.  My first real love in life began when I was 15 years old.  I always felt a spiritual connection to him.  There are times that the thought of him just consumes my mind and I often wonder if it’s because he is thinking of me too.  I believe that our spirits can feel each other no matter the distance.  

I also believe that there is a destiny.  I believe that our life’s course is predetermined.  Even though that feels like that means we have no choice, for some reason I understand it.  I believe our God knew every decision we would make and because he knew that, the course became predestined.  It’s a very hard concept to explain to people and most people think I’m a little nuts trying to explain it.  But that’s okay because somehow I just get it and it what feels right to me.  I believe that God is merciful. I believe that all of our brains handle life’s situations differently and because of that our judgement is far beyond just our actions.  I believe he knows our hearts, our motives, our histories, our desires.  

I believe in afterlife.  I believe there are spirits around us all the time and I feel like I have the ability to communicate to them whether it’s direct or God’s the messenger of what I want to say.  I believe those that we love that pass on are never too far.  I believe they are near and often cheering us on.  I believe in Love that surpasses this life.  I believe we are all connected through our spirits and love.  I believe every moment we experience happened for an eternal reason.  I even believe my eating disorder and addictions we laid out for me.  They are my trial and through them will give me to grow to be the person that I was destined to be.  I believe that growth can only happen through challenges and some of us can only become what we are meant to become through our specific challenges.