It's not goodbye...

If there's anything I would want my kids and husband to know if something happened to me would be that i truly deeply loved them. Having my babies were the best experiences of my life. I wanted nothing more to be a good mom and have a close relationship especially with my daughter.  I had a hope inside me that one day Chaz would be baptized and we would be sealed as an eternal family. I had so much hope for life. I just want my kids to know I love them, but I'm very sick and that sickness robs the love right from my heart. 

Chaz, I love you. You've taught me so much. I've learned what it truly means to unconditionally love someone. You are such a stronger person than I am and I look up to you. My wish for you is that you find the woman you and our children deserve.