Friday, August 12, 2016

Life as me

How do I live as me? What does that life look like? I don't like me, that's why I've been running from myself for so long. Problem is "me" seems to run just as fast and whenever I turn around there I am. 

What I don't understand is why it's so wrong to be a "drunk me" instead. I actually do stuff, I get out. I can play with the kids and clean the house. 

Right now, me is a big depressed blob that doesn't seem to have the energy to move. In fact I feel so robbed of energy I don't even feel like throwing up my food. 

I can't be a parent that lays on the couch all day.  But how do I find the me that I am ok with? 

How can I be present sober when instead I feel less present? 

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